… samjho sab kuchh sambhal gaya !!

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ik hawaa ka babula, uthte hi pighal gaya
ik ummid ka paudha, ugte hi kuchal gaya

ik dariya ki talaash mein, aakhri saans talak
ik hiran tha, jo sehra mein chalta hi chal gaya

ik umra kat gayi uski… haalaat ko badal ne mein
haalaat se bojhal… becharaa khud hi badal gaya

ik cheez suni hai… dosti kehte hai vo jise
thukra diya aakhir, jab matlab nikal gaya

ik bachpan ke khilone sa, dhool jamaa karne ko
rakh diya tha maale pe, jab zara sa dil bahal gaya

ik chot si khudurti hui, jism ke libas tale
ghaav naasoor bane, man aukal-be-kal gaya

ik hasi ka gubbara, kabhi lab par aaya hi nahi
ik khushi ka suraj tha jo saher mein hi dhal gaya

ik guldaste mein sajaa rakkhe the humne kai raaz apne
na chahte hue bhi aaj dil unhe lafzo mein udhel gaya

… ik baar saans ruk jaye, fir samjho sab kuchh sambhal gaya !!

A fair deal…!

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I’d love your presence in times of woe
I love the way you looked at me
Also at times when you try to let show,
Impishly, that you’re not looking at me

I love the memories lingering around
I love the happiness coming through
With equal happiness they make me astound
That, despite hazards, we made us grew

We can feel us today, though we are farther
We hope and wish to come close again
When for a second time we can walk together
Some miles of togetherness to waive off the strain

We hope to have it mesmerizing this time
Rejuvenating the vacuum with the air of emotions
I’ll strive and struggle, to clean the grime
And to harvest memories of care and passion

But a guarantee is pre-requisite from you too
It’s an oath, an assurance, and it’s a fair deal
That, if you’ll see me from outside your view
We’ll make it possible and I promise we will…

ehsaas…

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ehsaas

teri garm bahon ko aaj bhi odh kar sota hun main
teri saanso ki mahek se aaj bhi madhosh hota hun main
tere kesuon ko aaj bhi apni ungliyo se sehrata hoon main
teri rooh ke aaine mein khud ko aaj bhi dekh paata hoon main

tere jism ka ehsaas aaj bhi vaisa hi barkaraar hai
tere badan ki khushboo se aaj bhi dil ki duniya gulzaar hai
tere haath ko apni do hatheliyo mein rakhkar
nigahon se haal-e-dil sunane ka silsila bhi jaari hai

meri bezubaan aankhen teri silvato ka aaina bankar
mujhe roz saher mein jhinjhodke jagaa deti hai
main mehsus karta hoon ye sab, in ehsaaso ko jee nahi paata
Phir bhi, vo ehsaas hai jo zinda hai aaj bhi, sasns le raha hai

kaash hum thodi der aur saath jee paate, tum aur main,
khair, in ehsaaso ka main shukriya kaise karoon
ki tumhe ab tak mujhse jod ke rakhnewale vohi to hai
ye ehsaas hi to hai, jo humko jode rakhenge……… hamesha

YOU MADE ME A FOUL MOUTH

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I, to you, demand a day of recognition.
Millions murdered in the name of God
And I, in love, misunderstood as a fraud.
To be unpunished is to be un-forgiven, it seems
Like, to be great is to be misunderstood.

Judge me and I’ll prove you wrong,
Tell me what to do, I won’t tell you off
While I always do, but then when I cant do,
I’ll be the misunderstood.

I’ve never done any crime,
Never murdered you,
Yet again, I the cruel, I the evil,
I be punished, I be jailed
I be cursed, I be hated,
I, the un-forgiven,
I, the misunderstood!

Mistreated? Mismanaged?
Misplaced? Mislead?
You are the Miss-guided? You are the Miss-understood?
Yeah and of you I became the Misunderstood!

Stop pretending like you understand,
Because you don’t!
You never got me right
And u won’t until I’m dead.
How can you break?
My fucking heart and
Tell me you still love me.
Crush my emotions, sun-dry my tears
And assure me you’ll try to believe me?

Sometimes I just want to curl up and die
You pretend I’m a monster
I’m your devil’s man
I’m sick of writing my heart open to u
What could I do?
So I gave up!

My result is “misunderstood”
You the perfect, have the wrong image
Of who I am, I don’t have you
And I don’t have the trust of you.

The misunderstood and forgotten
Never believed and the un-forgiven
You’ve made out of me
A misunderstood jerk!

I hope I had someone,
You had the same one
He who would say to you for me,
“He’s just misunderstood”

My un-forgiven miseries shall never be understood
No, you actually won’t understand,
Because you don’t want to understand
There was this wrestle between you and me
Where the audiences were again just you and me
You played bighearted, honored me the award
Made me the recipient of “the misunderstood award”
I am the winner, the misunderstood and my feelings rejected
Unforgiving me never, for me, u selected

Your poor misunderstandings
Made me the poor misunderstood
Your grudged deep hatred
Made me deep un-forgiven

Fuck the world if they don’t understand
But as they say, never fuck a girl before she understands
Confused and lost,
I wonder why I feel so empty,
While I have all reasons to be so

“I fight only for myself
And love only myself”…
That’s what’s said
That makes me mad
Please leave me alone is what I say
Don’t misunderstand me is what I pray

Written of my love, I gave you a book,
You throw it, and I’m sure you make an easy look
Are you the one who UN-forgive me
Or are you too the un-forgiven by me

While it’s easy to forgive an enemy than a friend
It should be easy for you to, than me to forgive at the end
I lie, I steal, and I cheat
To U, that’s how I treat!

I’m an evil freak,
I’m the un-forgiven for you
But it’s me who’ll never forgive you
Mad, sad, confused
Indeed, you misunderstood

Oh lord please forgive,
Please make her want
What I can give
Behind your presumptions for me
Is everything you’ll never understand?
U never understood
How much I love you, coz
You chased to know why I love you!

The un-forgiven blends of your claims
Shall haunt me, you always wanted to
Use each occasion when you can
Abuse, misunderstand, complain & taunt me

My un-forgivable-s were not my crimes
My Inabilities and your perceptions,
Was what it took to chuck the good?
And bring in these tough times

And now you lay me down, you sleep
I pray to lord, my soul to keep
If I shall die before you wake
I pray to lord, my soul to take

It happens because you spend, I don’t?
If I had the chance, treating you like this, I won’t!

The Child Within…

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Dad, those were the days,
Those are now, the gone days

You loved, cared, scolded, gifted,
From a child to an adult, when I shifted

You pampered when required,
And gave me all that I desired

You bate to correct me,
And when I cried, u brought me a candy

To make me smile has always been
The purpose of all your doings, I’ve seen

Sitting on the tank, please take me for a bike ride
I’ll not urge for a chocolate, I promise to abide

As a child, I always thought
Every problem, you can sort

Like all other kids, that my father’s the macho man
You can do all… I know you still can

You’re the God, you’re the Guru and you’re the sun
You’re the face of all my success, you’re the reason I stood and run

You made me differentiate between the good and the evil
You carved in me, the principles that I live with

I once again feel like re-living my childhood
When you’ll surpass it selflessly, when I show up rude

With moments on move our lessons we accrue
All I say is many o’ my special thanks to you

At last, I announce it loud
That I’ll make you feel proud
I definitely will, papa….

Mummy, for you I can’t put my heart open in words,
Because it would be such a great injustice to do so,
You’re my creator,
You gave me life and brought me into existence,
I owe to peel off the deepest layer of my skin for you
I would still fall short to show my respect and love for you.
You are simply inexpressible!
On top of all, you gave me a great friend, a companion for lifetime, a beautiful little sister….