… samjho sab kuchh sambhal gaya !!

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ik hawaa ka babula, uthte hi pighal gaya
ik ummid ka paudha, ugte hi kuchal gaya

ik dariya ki talaash mein, aakhri saans talak
ik hiran tha, jo sehra mein chalta hi chal gaya

ik umra kat gayi uski… haalaat ko badal ne mein
haalaat se bojhal… becharaa khud hi badal gaya

ik cheez suni hai… dosti kehte hai vo jise
thukra diya aakhir, jab matlab nikal gaya

ik bachpan ke khilone sa, dhool jamaa karne ko
rakh diya tha maale pe, jab zara sa dil bahal gaya

ik chot si khudurti hui, jism ke libas tale
ghaav naasoor bane, man aukal-be-kal gaya

ik hasi ka gubbara, kabhi lab par aaya hi nahi
ik khushi ka suraj tha jo saher mein hi dhal gaya

ik guldaste mein sajaa rakkhe the humne kai raaz apne
na chahte hue bhi aaj dil unhe lafzo mein udhel gaya

… ik baar saans ruk jaye, fir samjho sab kuchh sambhal gaya !!

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Shadows of the later life – when the sun goes down…

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A thought put on paper,
A stone put on heart;
Some memories lingering around,
Of those who’re apart.

A desire to live,
Though a desert full of sand;
Though darkness with just some light,
But with one sky that has no end.

A road never traveled,
A feeling never told;
Young at heart and soul,
But with age that is old.

A ship still sailing,
“Ready to sink,
Or, reach to the bank?”
– Is what is to think!

A pungent clumsiness,
A tree with hazel leaves;
An untouched emotion,
An end for all our grieves

Attainment of the second stage,
And, an unharmed success;
Availing welcome from the other world,
Liberation from all of our stress!

A reward for all our deeds,
All that we’ve ever desired;
An espousal of family and friends,
We wish we had acquired.

A strange and secretive fear,
An enforced pursuit for something mysterious;
Living the last moments in gaze,
While others waiting to take their onus.

An unsolved enigma,
A masked face of sympathy;
Eyes screaming silently,
A soul suffering apathy!

Scanning entirely,
Some banned expressions;
Some falsified promises,
And, some broken restrictions!

A sharp sword of negligence,
On our uninvited arrival,
To festive occasions;
“We are oldies”, as they say.

But, like Kabir has identified,
That, we all have been MANY from ONE;
And that, we all shall continue to live,
Until the MANY again becomes ONE…

YOU MADE ME A FOUL MOUTH

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I, to you, demand a day of recognition.
Millions murdered in the name of God
And I, in love, misunderstood as a fraud.
To be unpunished is to be un-forgiven, it seems
Like, to be great is to be misunderstood.

Judge me and I’ll prove you wrong,
Tell me what to do, I won’t tell you off
While I always do, but then when I cant do,
I’ll be the misunderstood.

I’ve never done any crime,
Never murdered you,
Yet again, I the cruel, I the evil,
I be punished, I be jailed
I be cursed, I be hated,
I, the un-forgiven,
I, the misunderstood!

Mistreated? Mismanaged?
Misplaced? Mislead?
You are the Miss-guided? You are the Miss-understood?
Yeah and of you I became the Misunderstood!

Stop pretending like you understand,
Because you don’t!
You never got me right
And u won’t until I’m dead.
How can you break?
My fucking heart and
Tell me you still love me.
Crush my emotions, sun-dry my tears
And assure me you’ll try to believe me?

Sometimes I just want to curl up and die
You pretend I’m a monster
I’m your devil’s man
I’m sick of writing my heart open to u
What could I do?
So I gave up!

My result is “misunderstood”
You the perfect, have the wrong image
Of who I am, I don’t have you
And I don’t have the trust of you.

The misunderstood and forgotten
Never believed and the un-forgiven
You’ve made out of me
A misunderstood jerk!

I hope I had someone,
You had the same one
He who would say to you for me,
“He’s just misunderstood”

My un-forgiven miseries shall never be understood
No, you actually won’t understand,
Because you don’t want to understand
There was this wrestle between you and me
Where the audiences were again just you and me
You played bighearted, honored me the award
Made me the recipient of “the misunderstood award”
I am the winner, the misunderstood and my feelings rejected
Unforgiving me never, for me, u selected

Your poor misunderstandings
Made me the poor misunderstood
Your grudged deep hatred
Made me deep un-forgiven

Fuck the world if they don’t understand
But as they say, never fuck a girl before she understands
Confused and lost,
I wonder why I feel so empty,
While I have all reasons to be so

“I fight only for myself
And love only myself”…
That’s what’s said
That makes me mad
Please leave me alone is what I say
Don’t misunderstand me is what I pray

Written of my love, I gave you a book,
You throw it, and I’m sure you make an easy look
Are you the one who UN-forgive me
Or are you too the un-forgiven by me

While it’s easy to forgive an enemy than a friend
It should be easy for you to, than me to forgive at the end
I lie, I steal, and I cheat
To U, that’s how I treat!

I’m an evil freak,
I’m the un-forgiven for you
But it’s me who’ll never forgive you
Mad, sad, confused
Indeed, you misunderstood

Oh lord please forgive,
Please make her want
What I can give
Behind your presumptions for me
Is everything you’ll never understand?
U never understood
How much I love you, coz
You chased to know why I love you!

The un-forgiven blends of your claims
Shall haunt me, you always wanted to
Use each occasion when you can
Abuse, misunderstand, complain & taunt me

My un-forgivable-s were not my crimes
My Inabilities and your perceptions,
Was what it took to chuck the good?
And bring in these tough times

And now you lay me down, you sleep
I pray to lord, my soul to keep
If I shall die before you wake
I pray to lord, my soul to take

It happens because you spend, I don’t?
If I had the chance, treating you like this, I won’t!

Goodbye… (a personalised modification of the original song “goodbye to romance” by the ever great OZZY OSBOURNE)

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Yesterday has been and gone.
Tomorrow, will I find the sun or will it rain
Everybody’s having fun except me, I’m the lonely one
I live in shame

I say goodbye to romance
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess we’ll meet; we’ll meet in the end, before I end, before you end

I say goodbye to romance
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess that we’ll meet, we’ll meet; until then, there’s no end.

And I feel the time is right although I know
That you just might say to me
What ya gonna do… what ya gonna do.
But I have to take this chance
Goodbye to friends and true romance
And to all of you… and to all of you

I say goodbye to romance,
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past.
I guess we’ll meet; we’ll meet in the end, before we end.

The weather’s so suffocating, acting as a catalyst to suffering and sigh.
My tears don’t stop, today’s heavy rainfall day.
This day’s gonna last long and long until we meet.
I guess we’ll meet, we’ll meet in the end, before we end; I’m sure, some day.

“No one dies virgin, coz life fucks all”- is what they say, true!
My fingers are shivering of life; they’ve not touched your soul and your silk skin,
I crave to see you again;
I can extend my lengths to feel you once again.

So many kisses I urge to give you,
So much of care I have to take of you,
So much of respect I have to gift to you,
So many pleasures I need to share with you.

But,

The weather now is looking fine and I think the sun will shine again
And I feel I’ve cleared my mind, all the past is left behind again.

I’ve been the king, I’ve been the clown
Now broken wings can’t hold me down
I’m free again, the jester with a broken crown
It won’t be me this time around to love in vain.